Beauty

One thing that is odd to me is that a lot of things we consider "beautiful" are fake.  Pictures in a magazine are all air brushed and modified.  But also a lot of us are "fake" every day of our lives.  Well at least us girls are.  We wear make up, go on diets, dress ourselves in clothes we don't always like but make us look good. Some of us even go as far to get plastic surgery.  We do a lot of things, some even harmful, to our bodies to make ourselves look good.   What's wrong with the way we look naturally? I will admit I wear make up, dress in clothes I don't always like, and have even thought about getting some work done on my breast because I think they look to big and cause me more back problems then they are worth. Not saying I'll ever get it done, but I have thought about it. I struggle with my body image.  I hear people telling me that I look fine/beautiful/etc, but why can't I see it myself?  I sometimes think I look good.  However, a lot of the time I don't.  I look in the mirror and see every flaw.  My friend told me about this acting/modeling school that she's doing this fall, and said I should audition for next summer .  I'm not even sure if I can do it.  The whole time during the audition I'm sure all I'd be able to think is "I'm not the correct look."  And that upsets me that what I think of myself might actually crush my dreams of becoming an actress.  Why do we all strive to be something we're not?