So, my dear friend blog, it's been awhile. I've thought about many posts to write, but haven't. I could use the old excuse "didn't have the time," but we both know that would be false. Sometimes it was true, but sometimes I just couldn't gain the guts to write it. Sometimes I didn't know how to word things. Or explain them correctly. Sometimes I was afraid. Afraid of those who might see. Afraid of those who will. Then I thought, "who cares?" This is my place to write what ever I want. Those people don't have to read it. If they have a problem with what I write, they can just click the little x in the corner. Today, what I wanted to post, besides this, is this:
Life sucks. Right when things are going the way you want, something gets fucked up. An event happens, or you over-think things. Your mind can mess with you more than everyone in the world can. You can lie to yourself. Convince you that something is wrong/right, even though at one point in time you knew for sure it wasn't. Well...as sure as you can ever be. My mind has recently, as in today, convinced me of something that I really hope isn't true. I won't say what that was, at least not for now, but it's made me question the past 10 months. I don't know what to do. I talked to my best friend and she doesn't either. Once your mind starts to "trick" you, you start to notice things you didn't before. You are more sensitive to things that before you didn't care about. You start to "understand" things that don't make sense. That you once thought you had a hold on.
Is there really "truth" in the world? Or is everything one big lie and trick?
