The thought that counts

So in a few hours I will be 18, which is legally an adult. So, this past week I've been thinking about a lot. First of all I've been thinking of friends. How many I have lost over the years, gained, found out weren't true friends, etc. I have quite a few friends, and only recently I'm finding out how many are fake. That one girl that I posted about in the past 2 post I have not talked to since. I see her everywhere and it's just a daily reminder of how this could have been avoided if I wouldn't have hid my feelings from her, but I think in the end I'll be better off. It's just really hard when the one you want to get away from is there all of the time because she is friends with your friends. Another girl I've been trying to stay away from is someone close to my boyfriend's family. She has said that I flirt with other guys and have no respect for others. She also apologized a few days later for how this came out (not what she said but how she said it, and all of this was over text). I have not responded to the "apology" and I don't feel like it deserves an answer. I have talked to a few friends and asked if it looks like I flirt with the guys she says I do and they all say no and that it looks like we are just close friends. I also keep seeing this girl everywhere and I just don't know what to do anymore because every time I see her I want to go cry because of how mad she made me and of how mad I am at myself that I let her affect me so much. Some people would say this is a sign of guilt, but I assure you it's not. When ever I get yelled at for something, a rare occasion, if there is truth in it or not, I always feel bad. Like a puppy with their tail between their legs.
On another note, some people who I am very close to have been asking me what I want for my birthday, and honestly? I don't know . I could name movies or Cds or whatever but what do I really want? I guess maybe it's the whole "it's the thought that counts " thing. I want to see what they think I'll like, what they know of me.
After all this doom and gloom lets look at some perks at being 18!!!! I can smoke (if the smell didn't give me migraines and I actually wanted to), I can vote, I can gamble if I want (probably won't), and there's some other stuff that I can't really think of at the moment. Oh and I get 4 cakes in 1 day!!!!! Yay!!!!!!